Lately, I feel tapped creatively. I have not been reading. I have not been blogging like I normally do and every post I do manage to get up feels void of any personality. I have not been taking any pictures or making anything. Instead, I want to catch up on sleep and watch TV and movies. I feel like my job is sucking everything out of me these days. And I don't know what to do about it. And frankly, it's not just me. A.P. has been feeling the same way lately.
This past Friday, we went and saw the movie Wanderlust. It was hilarious and struck a bit of a chord with both of us. But mostly, we were amazed we actually got to go see a movie! And on a Friday night! Isn't that sad? We used to do things, but lately we only seem to be capable of either doing nothing, doing what's required, or cleaning the house. And frankly, that's A.P. more than me. I can't be bothered cleaning most of the time.
I keep thinking that if it were spring, maybe I'd climb out of my funk, but honestly, I don't know if that's really going to do the trick. And I don't know what to do about any of it.
Unlike some people, I really try hard to make sure my time isn't just work and home. I pursue a lot of interests and try to do things that make me happy. I play guitar, I write this blog, I take a lot of photos. I read, I see movies, and watch TV shows I enjoy. I listen to music, hang out with friends. A.P. does many of these same things, with the exception of playing the guitar and blogging. The problem is many of those things aren't making me or him much happier. And I feel like I don't have as much time for my interests, so I feel like I'm failing in that part of my life.
I'm not depressed either. I'm annoyed a lot, but not sad. I'm just tapped. I feel like I need something to revitalize my life, but I have no idea what it is. A vacation? A new focus? Spirituality? A weekend alone? A night out on the town? I surely don't know what will do the trick.
After Milwaukee, we thought about taking mini-weekend trips, but they seem like so much work. Find someone to watch the animals. Book the trip. Pay for the trip. Go on the trip. Leave on time for the trip. Etc. etc. etc. Needless to say, we haven't gone on any trips since.
We feel like we need something. Some kind of change. But until we figure out what that is, we're just...tapped.
Have you and yours ever felt tapped? How do you get out of a funk?
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