Lately, I've just been feeling like this is all a huge waste of time. I feel like what I do here doesn't really matter and that all the time I spend on this blog is, well, time better spent doing other things. I put a lot of time and effort into this blog and I feel like I used to do it just for me and then it became a beast of a thing and now I just don't know. I feel like I thought I could do something and maybe it's okay to admit I can't. So, I think I just want to go back to this being a whatever. A thing with mild focus and a lot of whatever I damn well feel like. I like structure, but sometimes I feel suffocated by it and I'm hoping that maybe if I let the structure go a bit, I will get back to what I first wanted to do here: write.
I hope you'll forgive me, but I also hope that you understand.
just to say, I really like reading what you write and particularly like the marriage mondays. but also if it's feeling like a chore or not fun it's not a hugely bad thing to step back a bit. I'll keep reading either way but maybe it helps not to put too much pressure on yourself.
ReplyDeleteSometimes less structure is better. I went through something similar last year when I realized I had all these deadlines for myself (certain posts for certain days, a certain number of posts I required of myself every week, etc.) and I got a little burnt out. It helped me a lot to take a step back and take a deep breath and be a little more relaxed about it.
ReplyDeleteJust don't go away altogether, okay? This is one of my favorite blogs! :)
It is worth it! We are reading :-)
ReplyDeleteI hope you continue writing I like reading it! Structure didn't work for me, it felt like a chore. But I might have too little structure on my blog, since I post like once weekly. However, I'm happier with my blog being more journal like now. But taking a step back for a bit is always good.
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